What Is My Urgent Message to the Universe

 I love writing. I love revisiting my previous posts to see what I've experienced, overcome, and still battle with. Today, I'm writing this as a 39 year old woman in Korea Town. We moved to Los Angeles in January 2025. Yes, we. Me and the Bearded One, Tee. We met back in August 2023. We made it official in February of 2024, moved to L.A. in 2025, and he proposed to me during a Toastmasters trip to India in May 2026. Since we've been together, we've experienced lots of changes and transformations. We've traveled a lot together, from Mississippi twice, to my first cruise to Jamaica and Grand Cayman, all the way to Bangalore. We've experienced Houston and L.A. together. Houston wasn't so bad. We both had income and nice apartments. L.A. has been a totally different story. 

When we first arrived things we great! We planned our move as best as we could. Tee withdrew his 401K to pay for our first month in L.A. We chose an overpriced fully furnished air Bnb inside a high rise called 1010. The rent was about $3,000+ a month. But we had so much faith because everything was falling into place. We'd moved in together in Houston in September 2025, cruised together in October 2025. By December 2025, we'd sold most of our things, secured the place in L.A., and were ready to make that 22 hour drive from Houston to L.A. We arrive safely, after resting in El Paso. The apartment was spacious and lovely. Settled in DTLA, complete with a sauna, steam room, hot tub, gym, pool, rooftop area, valet parking, and cool tap key fobs for entry, the place was expensive. But it was a super cool experience as our first stop in L.A. 

After month two in L.A., we just couldn't afford to live there anymore. We had to leave, Thankfully, my family took us in and we stayed with them for about 8 months. We found low wage jobs, and that helped a little. In November, we moved into a tiny little space in K-Town. It's small, and it's ours. This journey has been full of sacrifice and confusion. We've lost a few things, we've found a few things. We've most importantly built a firm foundation together, as a couple. It hasn't been easy, but it's definitely been worth it so far.

So now, what's my urgent message to the Universe. Previously, it was stability, education, and partnership. Well, I have a car, a place, a business, and a fiancé. I'm not seeking a relationship. I'm not seeking fame. I'm still a World Champion of Public Speaking. I'm not seeking external validation to make myself feel important. I've got that. My son will be 14 in a few days, and he's been with his dad for the past 8 years. I'm not trying to be Mother of the Decade. I've achieved a lot, I've accomplished a lot, I've seen a lot. My urgent message to the Universe these days is MORE. Not in a greedy sense, but in an abundant, prosperous, and luxurious sense. 

One mindset I'm adapting to and enjoying from Tee is comfort, convenience, and quality. He's not a bare minimum guy, but I've always been a bare minimum girl. At 39 1/2, I'm over it. I want a newer, nicer vehicle. I want a larger, more modern space with a corner view. I want the designer clothes, the hair, the skin, the nails. I deserve a high salaried career with USC or Reach L.A, or whichever company is a good fit. There's nothing wrong with experiencing the finer side of life. Hell, I've experienced the lower ugly side of life for years. I'm over it.

I'm ready for a life of safety, ease, and financial freedom. That's it. I've traveled to so many beautiful places, I've earned my degrees, I've lived in new cities, made great friends, and have found love again. The last piece is living the lifestyle of my dreams. Shopping on Rodeo and Melrose with no guilt. Pulling up to my multi-level home in the Hollywood Hills, working for a company that pays me well for the next 20+ years. Sitting my fine ass down and being still for once. That's it. 

My urgent message is: Hello Universe, and thank you. I've been through a lot. Made poor decisions, made great decisions. Helped some, hurt some. Healed a lot. Loved and lost, listened, laughed, learned lots. Through the bumps and bruises, ups and downs, I'm still here. You've given me everything I've asked for so far. This time isn't any different. I'm urgently asking for a high paying salaried long-term position with the company that is the best fit for me. I'm urgently asking for an unrealistic significant increase in my finances. I'm urgently asking for continued health on the path to my personal wealth. For friends and family that makes me feel a strong sense of belonging. For wisdom, patience, and responsibility with all of my blessings. For money to never be something I worry about negatively ever again. For stability, security, and financial peace. For the lifestyle of my dreams to manifest itself in the form of goodness, money, riches, and beautiful material things for me and my close ones. That is my urgent message. To live life unrestricted financially, building on the lessons I've learned and the skills I've already acquired.

I see it happening because I'm like a farmer. I've not stopped planting seeds. Seeds of job applications, FB posts, Toastmasters meetings, email responses, positive thoughts, books read, thank you's given, and loans repaid. The meantime is tough because I know greater is near. It's hard to wait for Christmas, especially when you know how sweet it's going to be. Biding the time is the hardest part. But the wiser I become, the easier it is to wait... I guess.

The Universe is always listening and has never let me down. Thank you in advance!